Wednesday, September 4, 2013

I fear too

Fear. I struggle much with this. Recently in one of my devotions it was stated that there are four types of fear. They are fear of loss, fear of rejection, fear of failure, and fear of the unknown. Then it went on to ask what types do you struggle with? Answering honestly, I might deal with all of them at some point in my life, but I definitely struggle with two out of the four. I struggle with fear of rejection and fear of the unknown. Rejection, I think is nothing unusual. Here is how my mind works. Even though I know it will eventually drive me crazy and it might make me sick, I would rather wonder what if, should I, do they, does he ... I would rather ponder these things, than get hurt.  My guard is up and it's up high.  However, it is effecting my everyday life. I want to please people. Am I perfect? No. Do I want people to know I do my best? Yes. This is one of my flaws. Ask someone who really knows me. 

I fear the unknown. I don't know what tomorrow is going to hold. God willing, we will have tomorrow. No man knows the day of the hour of Christs return. Thing is I know better. The Bible is clear on anxiety. It says to be anxious about nothing. I desire things, but I wonder if those paths are for me. 

I struggle. I should not fear, but I do. Every time I'm asking God to help me. I need his strength, because my strength is gone. He is my peace and hope. 

Be blessed.