Saturday, March 29, 2014

Reason 13- He Redeems All Things

Lord God, I praise You because you are my Redeemer. Even with everything I've gone through physically, emotionally, spiritually, etc You have and will continue to redeem me. I know You do this because of how much You love me. Thank You God, my Love, for redeeming me.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Reason 12- He Has A Purpose for Me

I thank You Lord that You already took the time to map out where You want me to go and who You would want me to be. Your purpose for me is great and good. You created me just the way I am so that I can fulfill this specific purpose. You knew me before I was born. You knew what I am capable of. You know everything about me. I'm thankful that You haven't said to me Your full plan for my life; I might try and run if You did that. Thank You for being patient with me as I figure this thing out. You are always here to help. Lord I praise You because You have a purpose for me.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Reason 11- He Is With Me

Daddy God, O how I love Your presence. You are always with me. Everywhere I go, there You will be. I love that You meet with me where ever and when ever I call on Your name. One of my common places is in my car. So many times I have felt Your presence just while driving down the road. You are with me. I thank You for being with me in scary times. I thank You for being with me in my saddest times. I thank You for being with me in my greatest times. I praise You because You are with me. Thank You Jesus!

Reason 10- He Is All Powerful

Thank You, Lord. I praise You for being all powerful to me and through my life. You know that this might be one of my favorite characteristics about You. Although You are many, many things, being all powerful. You can do whatever it is that You want. Whatever pleases You. That's pretty awesome. I thank You have power over everything and anything. Lord, You are so good and powerful. Satan was an idiot when he thought he could go higher than You. Thank You Lord for putting the enemy where he belongs. He has no power over Your children. I praise You because You are all powerful.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Reason 9- He Is Holy

Father, there are so many words to describe just who You are. Song after song has been written telling of who You are. You are so many things to all kinds of different people. But... Only one word I believe can truly sum it all up. You are...Holy! I praise You because You are holy. There is no one like You in all the earth. No one and no thing like You anywhere. You are holy!!!!

Reason 8- He Is A Good God

LORD!! You are good!! Thank You for Your goodness. You have always been so very good to me. This is why I will give You praise. It's because of how good You are. Everything about You is good. I know I've had days where I didn't like You very much (just being real), but by the end of the day I'm still saying how good You are. It's because You are always there to bring me through. Even through all my screw ups, You are still good. You are good to me even when I sleep. Thank You Jesus for being so good. I praise You for Your goodness.

Reason 7- His Word

Father God, I'm so very thankful for Your Word. You said what you had to say because you knew that even 2,000 years later we, Your people would need it. It's life's instruction manual. I'll be the first to admit that some of the instruction is harder to take, but obedience is better than sacrifice. I'm thankful for the Word in the since of how You still speak to Your people. You speak in that still small voice. I'm thankful that when You speak to me, it's with clarity. You leave no room for confusion. I thank You and praise You for giving me Your Word.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Reason 6- He Gave Me His Holy Spirit

Lord I thank You for Your Holy Spirit. I'm thankful for the gift of receiving the Holy Spirit. It is He who guides our every decision and step. It is Your Spirit that helps us know right from wrong, and to discern foolishness or sound wisdom. I'm so very thankful for the in-filling of the Holy Spirit. I praise  You for Your Spirit. I love how I can feel Your Spirit every where I go. Where I go, He goes. He lets me know if I should stay or if I should go. Thank You for Your Holy Spirit.

Something Has Gotta Give

Whenever I become extremely emotional or "depressed" (using that term lightly), I find that I do things that either I know I shouldn't do and/or say OR I do things that I normally wouldn't do and/or say. It probably happens to most people, if not all of us.
Not going to be blaming anyone but myself. I'm the one who let the enemy use me like a puppet. I fell into his lies. I have found myself believing the following:
1. You're not good enough.
2. No one wants you around.
3. You bother people.
4. No man will truly want/need/desire to have you.

I could go on.

So how does "Sarah" want to handled these feelings/emotions? What does "Sarah" do? I'll tell you. First of all there might/could be a percentage of raging hormones all over the place. Ok! Well my intention is never to snap. I turn to food. I isolate myself. I will go into my bedroom, lock the door, and be in there for at least two hours. That's only if my isolation doesn't run into my bed time, then I'm in my room until morning. I cry. Oh boy, I can almost cry at the drop of a hat. Another thing I do, as it was pointed out to me, is I take my feelings out on my hair. Oh my goodness! What my hair has been though these past three weeks has been rough. Literally I could be the next one to pull a Britney Spears. Just saying.

What should I do? Well, instead of just trying of thinking about it, I really just need to make up my mind and do it. Just look at my fear in the face and tell it to go back to the pit of hell where it came from. In which I have to do this every time; it's what we all should do. I need to stop focusing on what it is I want God to do for me and start focusing on what He wants me to do for Him. He created me, not I created God. Being raised in church my entire life, I could very easily go through the motions, but like the saying says, " It's not about religion, it's about relationship. "
A serious relationship, such as a marriage, takes work. It's not a one person task. It takes two people; a husband and wife. Well, as a single woman, I'm needing to trust God to be my husband. I need to trust that He will be my provider. I need to trust that He will fill every void I have present in my life. I need to trust that He will carry me through and bring me out along the way. I need to trust that He will guide me correctly and put me right where He wants me. He is the head of my life. I need to trust Him with my life.

So Lord, I pray that You will help me to trust You in every area of my life. Something has gotta give. It's going to have to be me. I give my life to You.

Reason 5- He Forgave Me

Daddy God, I praise and thank You for Your gift of forgiveness. Without Your forgiveness, we would not be able to forgive others. And without forgiveness, there would be no love. For that's what love does consist of, its being able to forgive. Help me Father to forgive those who have cursed me, who have hurt me. Help me to show them the love You would have me show. Thank You once again for such a beautiful gift. I praise You because You forgave me. Because I believed and received Your love and accepted Your forgiveness, I also received Your grace and mercy. I'm so thankful for the many, many times You forgave me. I'm thankful for the hundreds of second chances. Thank You Jesus for making it all possible.

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Reason 4- He Died For Me

Father God, thank You for Your Son who died for me. Thank You for Your sacrifice. Thank You for every drop of blood. If there was no blood shed, then there would be no chance for me as I live. Real love could not truly be shown. It was on the cross where true love was displayed. Thank You Jesus fir setting the example of real and true love. You love me so much that you saw me worth dying for. I give You praise because You died for me. 

Oh Snap!

This past week I have really tried to put together how I'm really feeling. And every time I write/post something, I delete it because I don't want to hurt your feelings. Even though I'm hurt, maybe a little confused, that doesn't mean I want to "return the favor:" It wouldn't even surprise if it was all my fault. These past couple of years I feel like I'm the one who's at fault. I'm guilty. Over half the time I don't say anything because I don't want to fuel the flames anymore than what they already are. 
Some people have said that they really don't care if we remain friends or not. I know that some friendships are only for a season and some for a lifetime, but to say that you don't care....really? How sad? 
Some people have said to me that I am inconveniencing them. They have had to rearrange their schedules to fit mine. But yet, you say "Its only temporary." Well, I'm going to say the same thing to you, "It's only temporary." Yeah, I regret not listening in the first place, but don't tell me that I am an inconvenience.  
Some people just don't tell me the truth. They say only what they think I want to hear. Be real with me. I've got my big girl panties on. If I bother you, tell me. If you need me to back off, tell me. Please rude or mean, and please don't humiliate me, but tell me. 
Some people who I wish would talk to me and include me more, don't. However, they have no problem sending me a once a month text to ask for their money when it is due. 
I'm so tired of feeling that I'm part of a competition for friendship. I am only one person. Wish I could clone myself, but sorry, that's not happening. Please don't get offended if we don't get to spend time together all the time. If I say no, it's nothing personal. 
I know that I need to put more effort into some of my friendships, but I'm also having to work through things in my life. I have NO car. I am debt free, but now having to rebuild. I still live at home. I want out. 
Feeling like I was pushed into choosing a career just so I could become financially stable. Finally at a job that I just absolutely love, BUT NO, feeling like you don't really approve because I'm not making the money you think I should be making. I would think you'd be a little proud and maybe you are. 
Definitely feeling like I'm hearing my wrongs more than what I'm doing rights. In fact there are areas where I know I've improved, but the second I do something wrong or something that you may not approve of, you have no problem speaking up at that moment.
I want a tattoo. Let me just say, that if I felt the least bit that I was being disrespectful then I would have got it when I turned eighteen. I'm 28. I've had ten plus years to think about this. 
Just the other day, all I wanted to do was give an update and be open. I hadn't been talking for five minutes and you have already voiced your opinion. Apparently, my reasoning doesn't matter. All that matters is what you have to say.
Not sure if you know this, but I cry now at the drop of a hat. Want to know why I hide in my room and lock the door? I've learned that if I stay in there, my opinions, thoughts, plans, etc. they are not always being shot down. I'm tired of seeking out your approval. Yes, I want you to be proud, but my life is my life. And the only one who I'm out to please is God. Not no body else.